Hold On

At a crossroads in my life bearing the weight of many disappointments and hopes unfulfilled, I stood surveying this place that I had never been.  The land of disappointment or better said reality!  I remember sitting down at the piano one day trying to play but no melody seemed to come.   Where had my song gone?  It was this feeling of despair and sheer hopelessness.  In frustration these words flowed from the depths of my heart, “when my melody is gone, and there’s no words to sing my song”.  What do you do when you’ve lost your melody?  When the song of your heart simply goes away?  The instant I sang those words I felt the spirit of the Lord speak to me so clearly, “Hold On”.  

Disappointment is a part of life and sometimes it’s a very big part.  “Hold On” became an ongoing project for me.  While many of the songs that I’ve written have come very quickly it was not so with “Hold On”.  It was almost as if the Lord was doing a great work in me through the process of writing this song.  The more words that He gave, the closer I became to believing once again in the joy that comes in the morning.  There is such a misconception in the idea that we will not face trouble and even deeper still that when we face trouble we cannot continue on. I have learned that in disappointment and failure is found the most fertile soil of faith.  

Written in the early part of 2005, “Hold On” has become a very close friend of mine .  When words seem to lack meaning or they seem insignificant in comparison to the situation at hand, it’s melody and meaning has brought much peace.  When my oldest sister was faced with the possibility of cancer and was being wheeled into the operating room, “Hold On”.  When my mother escaped death by only a thread, “Hold On”.  When one of my closest friends was facing marital destruction it was “Hold On” that became the background music for a life determined to heal. 

The midnight seasons of life come just as sure as the day but we must understand that it is possible to stand and hold fast to our faith.  We look to Jesus who is truly the author and finisher of our faith and we know that weeping may endure for the night but joy comes in the morning.